Alright peeps. I know it's been a while. To be honest, I've had a really hard time coming up with things to blog about lately. I just haven't been feeling it. But, as Becca pointed out, it's time to blog about something other than basketball.For starters, I'd just like to say that life couldn't be better. Apt #318 has been really good to me. I needed a fresh start after last year -- some new friends, a new scene, and a new perspective. It's amazing how much a handful of people can change you for the better. I feel confident, pretty, smart, and funny. And I haven't felt that way in a long time.
I love what I've learned the past eight months about myself. I'm learning to accept me for who I am. I'm learning that having insecurities is totally normal, okay, and human. I'm learning to be vulnerable -- to talk about scary things or admit when I'm wrong or clueless. I'm learning to recognize when I'm performing for someone else and when I'm being real. I'm learning to let go. I'm learning that there aren't any clear-cut answers to most of the questions I ask. But I'm learning that being in the dark is okay -- because it's teaching me to have faith.
The more comfortable I've become in my own skin, the easier it's been for me to reach out to others. I've learned a lot about human behavior lately, and it's really helped me to make friends. I'm trying so hard to be more honest and open. I'm learning that people actually develop a greater respect for you when you allow them to see your imperfections. It's okay to fall down, it's okay to say the wrong thing, it's okay to foul up in a relationship. In essence, it's okay to be human. Your honesty invites others to learn, grow, and laugh about life right along with you.
I'm constantly trying to keep this in mind:
"Being vulnerable doesn't have to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open, and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives" (Sara Paddison, The Hidden Power of the Heart).
Such a great quote, right? May we all have the courage to open up and let others in.
2 comments:
Emma, you are amazing. Good for you for being vulnerable. It is hard to do, but it looks like you have already learned a lot. I look forward to hearing more!
wow em! you put this all so, so well. i feel i've been on the same journey this year, and i'm glad we've had each other along the way.
i'm glad you said you feel pretty, smart, and funny - because you ARE all three! i hope you know i consider you one of my very best friends, and i feel lucky to get to interact with you so closely.
thanks for sharing this. i know i will refer back to these words many more times. --mal
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