I've been going through all my old journals lately and typing them up onto the computer. I've had a dozen half-filled notebooks and thousands of loose-leaf papers begging me to take care of them for months.
I thought going through those journals would be somewhat painful. Growing up is hard! And being reminded of your mistakes sure doesn't help. However, my reaction to my younger self was exactly the opposite of what I expected. Instead of being embarrassed by the young, naive girl I used to be, I found myself embracing her. She had some pretty funny things to say sometimes, but her words are tender because they came straight from her heart.
I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I'm never going to be 100% perfect -- especially not right now this second. I'm learning to be okay with being in the middle of a process. I keep waiting for the day when the mistakes are going to stop and I'll finally learn to say the right thing.
That day is never going to come folks.
But I'm finally okay with that.
2 comments:
What a great idea to type your old journals. I just found one of mine and thought, "I know I'm supposed to keep this, but where?" As always, this is a good post.
And yes, going through them is so cringe-worthy sometimes. SO much better to be an adult.
such great words em! you are so full of wisdom. i may just have to make reference to your blog again in my relief society lesson.;) you are just too good to not be shared.
LOVE you!
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